The Down Syndrome

I really don't know what I am feeling right now. I'm always attacked by the feeling of insecurity and there's no way i can find to cure it. It's more like a cardiac arrest and maybe writing this may help to outburst the pain I am experiencing.

It was a good start today at work. Just got a fairly good cheer from my co-workers. But end up really unwell because of unpredicted situation i wasn't able to handle. I am the project manager of a construction site and I find it really challenging for my career to have an opportunity like this. Considering I am still in the inception of the industry. It is a small project though I am in charge of everything from planning and design up to the supervision and quality inspection. Beside me handling this project is Kudur, a Syrian sidekick working for my Arab boss for almost twelve years and Shaheen, a Pakistani working as a freelance electrician for almost ten years. It was a "Good Group" as my boss said and indeed it was. And to come and think about it, I am really proud that though being a newbie, I was given a good break for the start seeing the importance of my position regardless of the few experience I've had.

We had a good deal and a smooth sailing workflow. However, I am quite reluctant and skeptical about the stability and my situation being the head of the Project team. Maybe because of the inferiority complex that suddenly kills me. It starts when my boss seeks for the report of Kudur regarding the project situation. Since Kudur has worked for my boss for a long time, he has already gained the trust of my boss to all the business transactions including some personal errands of my boss, Kudur is always there. Most of the time I felt like i was "left behind". Perhaps because I am young, or maybe I don't know arabic which is practically the language used since most of the people here don't speak and understand English.

Can't really do anything to stop this anxiety at the moment. I hope it will just be frozen in oblivion.

I Design...

"I Will Keep You Safe and Warm"

_Architect

I am an architect. Not by law but by the power vested in me to create structures that will protect people from harm, to show beauty of nature, to implement movement of people, to appreciate nature, to reminisce the history and therefore create it.
This is my work. This is my job. To design more than what a man could see. More than what man could think. I am concerned of health more than money, dignity more than profit, beauty more than eyes could see.

I am an architect. I build homes for a family, Offices for real professionals, Places for recreation. Elevating heights of building, Churches for sanctuary of spirit, Schools for effective learning. Cities for happy living and a good community. I will secure homes more than before the guard, I will find a way before the road, I will find a view more than an artist, I will give shelter more than a builder. With my hands you are safe, clean, happy and satisfied. More than that I will show you how good the Creator is.

I am an architect and this is my plan. Soaring humanity. This is my way of commanding people. This is my life.

Walk Like You Talk and Talk Like You Walk

In Construction Industry, it is inevitable to meet different people. Architects, engineers, marketing and corporate people. It is very challenging to encounter a conversation with them especially when you’re talking business. On the otherhand, what counts most is that you know what you are talking and what you say speak for yourself. It’s just a matter of how carry things on. Nevertheless, you should have an idea on how to work things out. I really have a fear of talking to people but once you know that you can get his idea, it just run smoothly. I was overwhelmed that I got the opportunity to talk and walk with them. It pushed me a bit to challenge myself to take the Architecture Board Exam in the coming years. But for now, I’m still under observation of my so called niche.

"Booksmarts or Streetsmarts?"

“Someone’s Capability is Immeasurable. It could not be Gauged by the Numbers”

In the industry where I’m involved—Construction and Management, skills are a priority. Especially in handling tasks and creating a sequence of work. There’s so much to learn and see. All you have to do is open your mind to all the opportunities and options.

There are two kinds of People. Those who are in theory—“the Booksmarts” and those who are specialized in experience and the actual--- “ the Streetsmarts”. It has always been an argument who is more capable. A contestant from the TV show “The Apprentice” once said that Books separate Man from Boys. But would that statement define the truth?

Many People could prove something in this scenario.

Michael Dell hasn’t finished his studies because of the small business he had in a small apartment. Eventually he became a Multimillionaire today and one of the top computer selling company.

Frank Lloyd Wright
A pioneer is a pioneer in architecture. He attended high school, but never graduated.

Bill Gates
Was a regular employee before. Today he is the architect of the software giant Microsoft.

Ludwig Mies van der Rohe
He created an influential 20th century architectural style, stated with extreme clarity and simplicity.He worked in his father's stone-carving shop.


These people serves as an inspiration to us that lack in education hinder success.

“I have never let my schooling interfere with my education.”
--Mark Twain

The Curse in Construction

Construction must really have gone so far. More advanced technology as it steps towards the future. However, there are also side effects of the industrialization. For what a chainmail has brought me, It says that there are also parts of the construction industry that is quite alarming.

Two Words to Choke Upon

Given the fact that I am a newcomer in the industry of construction, I can give different meanings when I hear the word under construction. For what I am experiencing now that I’m outside the classroom, I can say that teacher or books hadn’t told anything yet. Not even a preview. Or maybe I was absent when lessons were taught. But Seriously, I should be ready for the real thing.

UNDER CONSTRUCTION- means a structure or establishment is renovated or being rectified or in the process of being established or developed.
Example: The road was closed because it is under construction.

UNDER CONSTRUCTION- means that something is considered under the category of construction.
Example: She belongs to the management while I belong under construction.

Perfectly Imperfect

                  Another year has just passed and still it is an irony to think where I’m at in life. For more than two scores of walking to seek the meaning of this anonymous journey, it was fun looking at the old pictures that reminds me of what I’m made of. At this point, I’m filled with anxiety to come and think about the future has to offer. “Am I taking my time effectively? Have I taken chances for once? Is there any room for another try? I don’t have any idea if I could have concrete plans from day to day or ways to execute them as long as I’m satisfied with the way my life goes and I do not hinder anyone. What I feared most are regrets and unfortunately it is an integral part of life. When you try to perfect life, you’ll forget to appreciate life’s simple pleasures nevertheless when you lie low; regrets shall uncover the lessons you must have done in the end and leave you helpless. Perhaps life is unfair. On the other hand, it is still yours to take.