Wake Me Up When September Ends

Yesterday September 30...It was payday and I want a new pair of shoes. On my way going to mall I was stock into traffic. Staring at the window of the bus, a young guy caught my attention. He was looking at the tall buildings of the city from the sidewalk. I knew that I saw him before. Then I remembered. He was a cashier in a nearby convenience store where we use to buy food when I was assigned on a jobsite before. He reminds me of my younger brother. A poor boy with small built similar to a high school student who’s bullied by anyone in the class. My brother works as a kitchen crew on a hotel. His job wasn’t that easy for what I see, he’s waking very early to go to work because his workplace is far away from home and comes home very late that we can’t even talk because when I come home, he’s either asleep, leaving or on at work. The worst is that his earnings merely suffice his transportation expense. He often had empty pockets. I wish I can find a better job for him.
In the mall, I checked my salary on the ATM. On the screen, I was reluctant of the amount deposited on my account. I think I wasn’t paid enough but then I still withdrawn cash, the mall will be closing soon. I’ve seen all the shoes from different boutiques for me to have a good comparison, and then I picked the best for me. On a shoe stall, a group of saleslady was talking about their earnings for the week. One Saleslady was so glad she had earned that much. Then I remembered the money I withdrawn. It was bigger than her salary. I was humiliated by her happiness. I keep on asking for something else while others treasure with a little.
I was ashamed of my attitude. I forgot simple things that I need to understand. I kept on looking for something new just to fulfill my happiness not realizing that the only thing I need is just a simple appreciation of the things that I already have. I’m lucky enough. My salary wasn’t that big but I can afford the things that I want. I have a job. I have a home. We’re not affected by the calamity caused by the storm. There are so many reasons to be thankful for. I don’t really need a new pair of shoes. I still have more than enough on my rack. Funny how buying a new pair of shoes awakened me somehow.

Taking Back Sunday

I’ve been so busy with my work since the day I was employed. This is exhilarating at first and quite annoying in the long run. But the bottom line is you get the money, you pay taxes and you become a productive member of the society. I’ve been counting the days until weekend comes, day after day, the office become more of a home to me that it suddenly become my life. Everyday is a working day. No weekends. No time for other necessities of man. Does this life really becoming productive? I can’t even remember the last time I attended a mass or say a prayer at night. Seriously there’s something wrong. I hope I could take back Sundays. A lunch with the family, watch movie with friends, play basketball with younger cousins. How about reading a good book, play with my dog or sit and watch TV all day. I miss weekend.

Chasing What You've Chosen

Destiny. Is it a self proclaimed fact that you are compelled to pursue? Or a mere truth of responsibility? Whatever it means, I guess I have to admit that I’m engaged in the Industry I’ve chosen to take as far as my life goes. When I was at the terminal of high school entering college, I was really reluctant about the course I will be taking. Suddenly, it was Architecture. Why?Actually, it was the first on the course list (since it starts with A). Then as the years goes on in college, I woke up one day that I’m engaged with it and I gave passion through it. After so many trials I’ve worked with, there are times that I just wanted to turn back and raise the white flag. But in the end, I’m still pushed through the limits of my capacity. Moreover, Here I am still working with drawings, plans, talking with people engaged in construction.

Well of course I am having fun with my work. But will this be forever? I asked myself. I’m looking forward for a better niche and I find working abroad as an option.
I have so many plans. For myself, my family and the things that I love. I’m caught in the middle now. But I know in the end things will go my way. Coz everything perfectly fits for a cause. Perhaps sometimes you really have to know what it is.

Two Words to Choke Upon

Given the fact that I am a newcomer in the industry of construction, I can give different meanings when I hear the word under construction. For what I am experiencing now that I’m outside the classroom, I can say that teacher or books hadn’t told anything yet. Not even a preview. Or maybe I was absent when lessons were taught. But Seriously, I should be ready for the real thing.

UNDER CONSTRUCTION- means a structure or establishment is renovated or being rectified or in the process of being established or developed.
Example: The road was closed because it is under construction.

UNDER CONSTRUCTION- means that something is considered under the category of construction.
Example: She belongs to the management while I belong under construction.

This Apartment Is Starving For An Argument

I’ve been renting a room for the past two months for my work. Perhaps I just want to try something else although I’m not experiencing great difficulties when I commute everyday considering the distance of my workplace to home. It’s not my first time to live this way because I lived in an apartment when I was in college for my thesis. Today, I made some computations for my daily expenses to gauge if it’s really worth the cost. Summing up the cost for renting a space from commuting everyday to home, there’s a pretty negligible difference. But the idea is that.

ADVANTAGE OF RENTING A SPACE:

YOU’RE JUST A RIDE AWAY TO OFFICE. You don’t have to hurry when you’re getting late for work.

DISADVANTAGE:
YOU’RE NOT AT HOME. Which means a lot of adjustments. You cannot do anything you want. What if there’s no water supply? You have to fall in line to take a bath in the morning when you’re renting a bed space.

YOU HAVE TO BUY EVERYTHING IN STORES OUTSIDE. Unless you can cook.

YOU HAVE TO BE INDEPENDENT. Coz mama’s not around to prepare your food or even wake you in the morning.

Words

Meron akong kasamang engineer (not quite sure about his authenticity) na may masamang pananalita. Kapag naririnig ko na binabanggit niya ang salitang Kwan, naiirita ako. Sa loob ng isang minuto, mababanggit niya ito ng 59 beses. Nakakainis dahil ipinampapalit niya ang Kwan sa salitang hindi niya masabi. Ibig sabihin, hindi niya talaga masabi ang gusto niyang sabihin nang malinaw. Maliban ditto, masama pa ang accent niya dahil pabalang ito. Yung tipong boss na nagmamay ari ng pagkatao mo..Sa aking palagay, hindi magandang salita ito dahil nangangahulugan ito ng pagiging vague. Hindi mo masabi ang nais mong sabihin dahil kwan.Yung kwan eh kwan. Kapag kwan ito, siguradong kwan na. Ewan. Nakakairita talaga.

“Be careful of the words that you use, they speak for yourself.”

The Great Escape

I thought that Graduation was the terminal of all the hardships and sleepless nights but then, the real world was even worst. When you're in school, you can drop your subject if you can't take it but in reality if you do the same, you'll lose your job and be unemployed if you fail to make an important submission especially if it comes with a real big deal. There's no turning back now because everything lies in front of me and there's no choice but to take it or take it. Everybody moves and grasp every moment. If you stop, you see every regret in the end. Every minute counts. Now i know how it feel when you're in school and you want to work and when you're working, you wanted to quit but quitting wasn't an option anymore.

Kill The Crab

I’ve been employed in a small company for almost one month. So far, I’ve been doing a lot of observations since I’m a newcomer and new to the real world. This is my first job and I don’t know when will it last. Honestly, there’s a lot of pressure I’ve encountered from the working environment, the people in the company and the nature of my work. Since I’m a rookie, I’ve been dominated with people who think they are in the position to dominate. Probably because of their age or maybe, their position. Or maybe they see me as a threat for their employment. Since I’m young, aggressive and hardworking and computer literate. Every little step I make, there will be an eye to see if there’s a room for mistake. Perhaps this is the environment of a company especially for a Filipino company. Maybe I’m too young to be defeated but I’m overwhelmed that they see me as a threat, cause it challenges me to improve what I have. In the end, only the best shall prevail.